When mom was in the hospital 5 years ago…there was a specific and noticeable turning point.  One morning, after fighting so hard and long, and fevers and doctors telling her to put her “things in order and say goodbye to her loved ones” and swelling and rashes and just a battle for life…she woke one morning and said these exact words, “something is different today”.  She told us that something had broken.

Mom called me at 5:45 this morning and sounded like her old self.  She said, “Something is different today.  I’m better, something is different.”  Thank you God.  Those words were heavenly!

She had asked Paula and I to go to the doctor with her.   We did.  She told the doctor that she felt better.  He was glad that her attitude and outlook were positive.  He scheduled a Bone Marrow biopsy for Thursday.  He says our best diagnostic tool is the biopsy; we need to see no blast cells in the marrow.  Then he discussed what he may want to do if the cancer was still there….mom said she’d think about her options but told him not to worry, “I think we’re going to get good news, I’m better.”

She has had a horribly bad week.  She lost 14 pounds since seeing him last Tuesday.  Holy crap!!!!!  Has not slept well, has had muscle cramps, diarrhea, nausea, fatigue, shaking, weakness, shortness of breath and anxiety/fear.  She’s been in a battle.  But today is different.  Today is better.

We do not fear bad news.  We know that God is moving.

And thank God for Mike.  He’s going to be at Aunt Julie’s funeral on Friday.  Mom really needs for someone to be there.  He will get closure for her.