Maybe I think a blog should be encouraging, or interesting…and all I can do when I sit here to write is question and complain.  WHY?  Why is cancer attacking Bob again?  Why are we dealing with this fight again?  Why am I so discouraged?  Why am I feeling defeated?  Why us?  Why, why, why?!?!?   No one wants to read this, no one wants to listen to complaining.  Heck I don’t even want to listen to it myself.  So instead of puking all over these pages I had decided to keep it all inside.  Good choice?  I think not.  Soooo….let the questioning / complaining / puking all over these pages begin.