Mom started her day by getting a new PIC line. Bob had his pulled last week…she got hers placed today. “For Christ’s sake…when will this end?” She says that a lot.
I went to the doctors appointment and chemo with her today. Doctor says, “You look much better than your blood tests say you should!”. We told him we were ignoring the numbers…and just living one day at a time. He told mom, “It’s working for you, keep it up. We will pay attention to you and not your numbers”.
I sort of had a bad weekend. I’m a bit crabby. “For Christ’s sake when WILL this end?” Just tired of it all. I’m confident that we will be okay…really I am. But wow, when do we get a break.
Marilyn Hickey preached Sunday. The message was about God being attracted to our weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:10 -Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, ….. For Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
So what really stuck with me was the “for Christ’s sake” part of that. I’ve read -and really feel that I’ve lived – the ‘when I am weak then I am strong’ part of that. I know that God is strong in me, stronger than me, shows up and lifts me when I’m weak, carries me through when I feel that I can’t walk it out, holds me, comforts me, and just basically is my strength when I feel that I have nothing left. But, I really never focused on the part about taking pleasure in infirmities for Christ’s sake. I don’t know if I’m there yet. I don’t know if I can take pleasure IN IT…maybe I’m still working on finding any pleasure during it. I mean, for Christ’s sake….I guess I can work on it.